The Devil Incarnate
The Soulmoon project was first thought of one day when I was in my house. I always wanted to be in a band and make music since I was a child, so eventually ended up in a band. Being in a band also means compromising and trying to get everyone to agree on the one theme, the style of music and so many other things. I am a very creative minded person, so i needed to pursue my own creative vision too.
I decided that I was going to start a solo project as it is something i’ve wanted to do since i was a teenager, so I got an old drawing pad from when I was at college and some pencils. I started to write and sketch ideas about the project and what it would be about.
Originally it was going to be called “The Devil Incarnate” and it was supposed to be about a fallen angel that God had sent down to earth to experience human life and emotions as a punishment to help him understand the bigger plan that God had. He was put here with the ability to feel other positive emotions – which was crippling at first for a being that had never experienced anything other than hate, selfishness, ego, and rage. Through this he began to grow and start to understand that there was a much bigger plan at work. He started understanding people’s pain and suffering on earth. It made him want to change the world – but the world was rife with the sins of man. It made him want to change the world! This project was about social issues, politics, life, and everyday problems in the western world – but I decided to give it a complete makeover.
I had already written so many sets of lyrics and started making music for this – but because of everything that happened around that time, I gave up on the theme of it as I couldn’t be bothered focusing on those subjects in the same way anymore. I was surrounded by these topics every day and I was driving me mad, so I decided to take another approach that was a lot more personal to me. “The Devil Incarnate” project that I was originally going to do might see the light of day at some point or maybe never. For now it is just drawings on paper, lyrics on paper and unfinished musical ideas!
The Soulmoon project as it is now came about as I was stressed, struggling with so many parts of myself and to me was the beginning of my own therapy in a way. I see it as me getting closure on a lot of things and at the same time it could help to guide others that have struggled or are struggling with similar topics.
To create something that is so close to my heart, so right to the bone - is what I am doing today. I’ve been working on this project and using experiences that have changed my life in beyond words and even my own understanding at times. This is my truth about my psychic and spiritual experiences.
I delved into this phase of my life as if my existence depended on it and I did not look back! It is one of the things I have done, and look back at with great pride, as only I know how much hard work has truly gone into getting through all that life has thrown at me during this time!
At the same time showed myself what I am truly capable of when I put my mind to it! During the time of my psychic awakening, I had to learn to be quite thick-skinned in the face of those who were less empathetic or educated on these subjects. I spent every waking minute contemplating and reading about for years. I had a lot of people that were openly nasty to me, that backstabbed me, just assumed that I was a liar, assumed i was looking for attention, or that i was just plain crazy! Those people are long gone from my life now along with their assumptions about me. I don’t doubt I will face people and opinions like that again especially if I’m releasing music about it and taking these kind topics on-line. The difference is that now i don’t care about others opinions on my experiences as they haven’t walked in my shoes!